Bigger and Better me

So looks like I haven't posted anything here in over a year! So much has happened in the last year! 1st I moved out of state! 2nd I found a new life 3rd I found a new me 4th I found a amazing Friend Life throws so many things at me and I wish I could explain or know why! I fall for a guy who I wish I knew why! and he has a lot of imperfections in him! I love the fact that he is far from perfect! I love that he is real I love that he is him! He recently made a choice in his life that Has me upset. He is just my friend and I am okay with that for riht now. I hope one day we can be more. He is working on him as I am working on me. He is not here right now. He is away for 9 months but Can now go away Longer.... it hurts so much! Because i felt I found someone who could make me happy. He still does make me happy friendships of any kind has its up and downs. This is a point we are having a down. But I will show him the strength that I have and stand by him to show him I wont let him down.

Utah Barbies

' Park City Barbie'
She comes with an assortment of Kate Spade Handbags, a Lexus SUV, a long-haired foreign dog named Honey and a million dollar home. Available with or without tummy tuck and face lift. Workaholic Ken sold only in conjunction with the augmented version.


'Sandy Barbie'
The modern day homemaker Barbie is available with Ford Wind star Minivan and matching gym outfit. She gets lost easily and has no full-time occupation. Traffic jamming cell phone sold separately.


'Ogden Barbie'
This recently paroled Barbie comes with a 9mm handgun, a Ray Lewis knife, a Chevy with dark tinted windows, and a meth Lab Kit. This model is only available after dark and must be paid for in cash (preferably small, untraceable bills) unless you are a cop; then we don't know what you are talking about.


'Draper Barbie'
This yuppie Barbie comes with your choice of BMW convertible or Hummer H2. Included are her own Starbucks cup, credit card and country club membership. Also available for this set are Shallow Ken and Private School Skipper. You won't be able to afford any of them.


'Spanish Fork Barbie'
This pale model comes dressed in her own Wrangler jeans two sizes too small, a NASCAR t-shirt and Tweety Bird tattoo on her shoulder. She has a six-pack of Bud light and a Hank Williams Jr. CD set. She can spit over 5 feet and kick Mullet-Haired Ken's butt when she is drunk. Purchase her pickup truck separately and get a confederate flag bumper sticker absolutely free.


"Scipio Barbie'
This tobacco-chewing, brassy-haired Barbie has a pair of her own high-heeled sandals with one broken heel from the time she chased Beer-Gutted Ken out of Spanish Fork Barbie's house. Her ensemble includes low-rise acid-washed jeans, fake fingernails, and a see-through halter-top. Also available with a mobile home.


' Moab Barbie'
This doll is made of actual tofu. She has long straight brown hair, arch-less feet, hairy armpits, no makeup and Birkenstocks with white socks. She prefers that you call her Willow . She does not want or need a Ken doll, but if you purchase two Moab Barbies and the optional Subaru wagon, you get a rainbow flag bumper sticker for free.


' West Valley Barbie'
This Barbie now comes with a stroller and 2 infant dolls. Optional accessories include a GED and bus pass. White boy Gangsta Ken and his 1979 Caddy were available, but are now very difficult to find since the addition of the infant.


' Provo / BYU Barbie'
She's perfect in every way, mainly due to the high levels of antidepressants in her system.. We don't know where Ken is because he's always at church meetings.

My Bucket List

Cadie's Bucket List

1: Go on a Cruise.

2: Travel to Paris

3: Ride a Horse

4: Go off roading

5: Have a Bon Fire

6: Meet fav Celebrity

7: Fall In love

8: Have another kid

9: Sing Karaoke

10: weigh 170

11: Run a Marathon

12: Dance Naked In the Rain.
13: To Be Continued......

Summer fun take 1

Thought I would share some of our summer photos and a video I took of Lilly :)

Ello how are you?

Okay so I have not been on much.... I will now explain
1: I temp lost the internet my wireless card broke.... :(

2: NO POWER!!! I paid my power bill $50. It was not the whole bill but it was all I could affored... I was even $50 short on my rent. So i could prevent it being shut off. Well they wanted like $67 more. I did not have it :( So On June 9th they shut it off. :( its been a week and a half now. They want $96 I think it was now to turn it on... So I am working on it. I am trying. :( but My dad sent me $200 which covered it and my Gas Bill..... I love him so much and It saved me so so much!!

3: Lilly had a infected tooth.... poor girl We woke up one morning of June 9th and her cheek was SWOLLEN!!! Like poor girl! I made her a emergency dental appointment. He looked at the X-ray and There was shadowing around her back tooth. So on the 23rd they'd pulled her back tooth.... UGH!

4: Meanwhile I have been staying at my grandmas/cousins house till I have power again.... its tight and I just want to be HOME! I miss HOME!! I love being here and spending time with Family.... but well we all understand how Home feels. :(

5: Best for LAST! My Grandma Turned 80!!!! Her birthday was June 20th! Such a amazing women! She has lived such a Legacy! :-) We are planning a party for her! How I love her so much! I see her suffering lately and It breaks my heart! She has done so much for me as a child. Helped raise me, tought me how to put on makeup. She never once gave up on me. No matter how Horrible I was as a teenager. All she ever did was LOVE ME! Grandma I LOVE YOU! ALWAYS!!!!! :D

6: I have moved in with my cousin and my grandma....... they need some help, my grandma is getting older and getting up there! :) I love My family very much and they are amazing!! :)


Random photo of the day:

Day at the store

Yesterday my aunt took me to winco, as we left some older lady told me that yelling at my daughter is not the answer. Now Lilly was jumping around and I was frustrated as can be..... And she was being a kid. But I didn't yell at Lilly in the store, I have been working hard on not razing my voice... Lilly is doing better... Anyways...
I rolled my eyes and walked away... As I was loading the car I told Lilly that I was proud of how she behaved in the store she didn't beg or asked for things just jumpped around (which is a big improvement) another lady came up and said.... I am so happy to see a mom saying good job. All you hear is yelling in the stores! It made my day as I didn't yell at Lilly in store.
When I told my aunt about the older lady I said " of course if she knew me she wouldn't have assumed I was yelling" my aunt laughed and said " I was just thinking the same thing.... We know when cadie yells it's LOUD!" lol

I miss.......

My Baby when she wasn't even a year yet :) Look at those eyes!


Moments like these when they are so young and these smiles will never fade.... I also Miss the other 2 angels.... :D


Funny moments capturing a forever heart



Lilly and Nicole in the hot tub I had fun playing around with this one.... :)


Last but not least... Lilly and her friends... these moments you capture in the moment but hold on to forever :)