Bigger and Better me

So looks like I haven't posted anything here in over a year! So much has happened in the last year! 1st I moved out of state! 2nd I found a new life 3rd I found a new me 4th I found a amazing Friend Life throws so many things at me and I wish I could explain or know why! I fall for a guy who I wish I knew why! and he has a lot of imperfections in him! I love the fact that he is far from perfect! I love that he is real I love that he is him! He recently made a choice in his life that Has me upset. He is just my friend and I am okay with that for riht now. I hope one day we can be more. He is working on him as I am working on me. He is not here right now. He is away for 9 months but Can now go away Longer.... it hurts so much! Because i felt I found someone who could make me happy. He still does make me happy friendships of any kind has its up and downs. This is a point we are having a down. But I will show him the strength that I have and stand by him to show him I wont let him down.