I miss.......

My Baby when she wasn't even a year yet :) Look at those eyes!


Moments like these when they are so young and these smiles will never fade.... I also Miss the other 2 angels.... :D


Funny moments capturing a forever heart



Lilly and Nicole in the hot tub I had fun playing around with this one.... :)


Last but not least... Lilly and her friends... these moments you capture in the moment but hold on to forever :)

Kentucky

So I have lived in Utah since I was 8.... As much as I like it here a lot of bad has happened to us here..... Seems like I cant shake the crap my ex did and I still get judged for what HE did..... I don't have anything really to do with him anymore. I talk to his mom once and a while to give her updates on her granddaughter... But I just think a move is a good idea for us.... Not like right now... I am thinking of next summer after Ive saved enough money to move.... I need a new car i need a trailer hitch so I can put a hitch to move our things...

I was thinking Kentucky.... My friend lives in shepherdsville and She is very central to My dad, and some other friends that aren't in Utah..... So Its a big change.... Anyone live around there? Can maybe tell me about it?

I just not sure how else to move on from my ex husbands Insanity :) Plus it would be cheaper for us..... I got housing so when Ive been on it a year I can move anywhere I want that has housing....

Anyone else make a BIG move that can give me advice?
Ive been praying about it and Ive only got a few small reasons to stay in Utah..... but Nothing that I cant come back for.... I think Lilly and I need to Move on and Start over.... I know moves do not fix problems but it may help to start fixing.

Random Photo of the day:

Sitting in a room

So yesterday My aunt dropped off my niece, Staci's Little girl. We had a blast! The girls got to play for a little bit... then we had pizza for dinner and cake for dessert. Afterwards we went outside and Played Kick Ball.... :) Came in And hung out for a little while then took a walk to the corner store and got Popcorn, and red vines for Movie night.... We watched Ghostbusters 2... One of Lilly's new Favorite movies :D I did not get many photos of last night but I got one photo that was adorable! :D

What The Hell.......

Randomness From me..... So I have a new Theam song...... The chorus in this video is so me.... :D Ive got randomness also on this post... Like random pic with some awesome Friends who I love to death! :)

Cutting the Habit Day 4

Well I am day 4 on NO Soda..... its really tough. When I am stressed and Dying just dying for something sweet and bubbly ..... its a craving that is not easy to cut... Sad thing is it was easier to cut drinking alcohol then it is for soda for me... But I guess we all have our addictions and this one is killing me. I know it will be worth it. I know that by cutting the Soda I will make myself more healthy I will lose this weight. I know its just a start but I know I can do it... As I am sitting here thinking so hard for another drink of soda... A COLD Dr Pepper or Maybe a COLD Pepsi.... that yummy taste is a craving I am sure as the days go on I will be dreaming of it....
Lilly the other day found 4 cents... she walked downstairs to the neighbor who sells soda for .50 cents and she gave him 4 cents for a soda for me... but got upstairs and decided it was hers... Now As sweet as it was I am so glad She did not give it to me... because Honestly I would have drank that soda. and I would have to start all over on my days.... :D

Randomness on a school day off

So Lilly is out today and tomorrow for Kindergarten testing.... She has her test tomorrow at 11:10....So today we have been hanging out just the girls :D
So Since its raining we where in the hall Scootering Along :D She has a new favorite movie Josie and The Pussy cats and she watches it over and over! LOL

Random photos take 1

Random Blur of photos :D

Cutting the Habit

I am quitting Soda... I made it though yesterday without Any Soda pop. Now it was not EASY! I was freaking out trying to find change for a soda. It was HORRIBLE! I could not find any soda.... Lilly told me if I ran to the Store I would earn a soda.... well I ran and I forgot to grab the right card.... I grabbed my ID instead of the bank Card!!! UGH!!! I made it home I drank a ton of WATER! But WOW I wanted to Claw someones eyes out from Lack of Soda! I Did not realize how bad it was for a addiction! I must QUIT and I will Quit!

So Day one over.... I am on Day 2! Lets see if I can do it!

Ugh to Ugh

I sometimes wonder what is the point of so so many things

First: Whats the point in cleaning? I mean I clean and It's a never ending process!! I clean one room and its messy before I finish the next!
Yes there are many Joys of cleaning such as, The feeling of completion, The feeling of it being clean!

Second: People!! Why why why???

Third: Being nice? Whats the point of being nice? Your nice and people just walk on you?

Forth: Food? Why do I eat when it just comes up in the end? I HATE FOOD!

I just wish I could fix things in a flash I am a nice person but overly annoying! People Well Lets be honest People can't stand me.... I have few people in my life who can put up with me... I mean My own parents don't want to be around me! Nor do my siblings! Well Whatever! Guess I don't need family!

This has been another Ramble by the Rambling Cadie

Race For the Cure.....

RACE FOR THE CURE



So May 7, 2011 I went on a 3 mile walk with my Aunt, and 2 cousins and The Girls (Lilly and My cousins Daughter.)
It was truly a eventful day. Woke up at 6am showered, my cousin then woke and woke the girls. We got them ready, My Aunt and cousin Jamie showed up at around 7:30 we left the house went to trax to ride the train. The girls enjoyed the train ride but early made them quiet :)

We Got downtown and Got off and the sworm of people Was AMAZING! We Started the Long 3 mile walk with every one.


It was such a amazing feeling When we Saw the 1 Mile Sign! I knew I could do it! I knew I would finish!

How ever I knew I would still need to stop along the way to Rest and Make it.... Me and the girls Stopped and They Cheered on the other walkers :D
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When We got to the 2 mile walk I think the girls where about done.... However Lilly was worst. We slowed down just me and her and Chatted and I told her I needed my cheerleader so I could make it! I told her it did not matter how slow or how fast we went, as long as we make it to the end we are WINNERS! By the end I think Lilly was in a bad mood but My little troooper did it!


We walked around the mall for a little bit Here is the GROUP SHOT! (minus my aunt)


I got a awesome photo of Lilly with her in front of a SEA of people! :D


The ride home was the worst! 2 of the last photos are funny We have the
"SEE No Evil HEAR No Evil and SPEAK No Evil"

and the random guy in the background SMILING! :D made me laugh!


After this we went to the library for the FREE COMIC book day for my cousin Jamie, It made his day! :)

On the trax home it was very crowded, and well Lilly did not do well I had to hold her tight because she wanted to run up and down but I wouldn't let her. I told her she would get hurt I said I love you. I also was trying not to cry her struggling to get out of my hands was hurting me. You could hear her screaming it was bad... However I did not give in! I Kept my cool and I handled the Situation better then ever!
The day was by far the Most eventful day we have had in a long time. On that note: I WOULD NOT CHANGE IT FOR THE WORLD! It was fun!